你所具备的知识将会带给现今人们多大的价值， 这才会是人们关心的重点。

Would really like to be with him at this moment
but i have to deprive myself from that desire
for the sake of doing well on this cause.

When i woke up this morning,
Just at the edge between my dream and the waking-up-to-reality moment,
A strip of a fond childhood memory flashed into my mind.
It's not a dream, I think i can distinguish,
But somehow this long-lost memory was being flashed out of my memory box,
And lingers in my mind till now

It was the memory of my dad holding me and my brother walking through a bridged railway trail.
Beneath it was a river!
Was young that time
And remembered that i was so timid and dare not try the stance
My brother was brave enough
Dad walked him through the trail not one time,
two times at least
I think that time he hadn't passed the age of nine

My dad encouraged me to try the dare
I remember i finally took up the courage to have a try
But half way through,
The river down there managed to overcome my courage
What if i miss a step and fall into the river
WHAT IF ANYTIME A TRAIN APPEARS AND CRASHES US DOWN??!!
Withdrew.....

That time and even till now i don't understand why my dad would take this risk
Maybe he already knew it was an abandoned trail?
That he knew it was safe for us to walk the trail?
Will ask him when i go back next round
Don't know whether he can still remember this incident

But, really a fond memory to recall
This memory has not even once been recalled to my memory
So precious that i get to recall

Now when i think back
I know that if i miss a step
My dad will be strong enough to lift me up even by a hand
I should have walked till the end
And get the praise and acknowledgment from my dad that i am a brave girl.....

''Never 'for the sake of peace and quiet' deny your own experience or convictions.'' (Dag Hammarskjold)

Yeap, i should get it..

''If you don't know where you are going, you will probably end up somewhere else.'' (Lawrence J. Peter)

I don't want my life to be purposeless,
A purposeful life should have no chance to feel bored...

Yesterday had just talked with dad regarding the temporary teacher's job in my former primary school.
Quite excited to think of going to teach in a Chinese primary school!
Hmm, hopefully the excitement won't be bogged down by the overwhelming workload that i don't expect.
Quite look forward to get to teach in primary Chinese school,
Provided if the kids are controllable, and not getting on my nerve.
And that i get to teach English. Science? In Chinese? Hmm..
And temporary teacher won't take up too many teaching hour, i suppose?
Well, good to have a job as a teacher nyway during the hol.
Can't just sit there doing nothing.
Just a half day work,
and hopefully i am free to explore on cooking!

Then....

Waiting to get the heart-throbbing news

about POSTING

at the end of July

Just done my Konnyaku Jelly.
Can't wait to taste it! ^^

Just feel like writing things out..
Putting myself in a focused study situation is...
a bit pik cek...
I can hardly focus doing on one thing for a long time..
But in this situation i am forced to do so..
That's why a bit pik cek..
Seeking for sweet escape every now & then;
Like sneaking in here to write a blog,
Just to do some other little detour
To release myself out of the boredom
of focused study.

My San is a baby, he really is......

Am currently struck by the boredom disease...
Feel bored whenever i am back to my own room..
I think feeling bored reflects a negative mentality..
It probably tells a person's lack of interest, innovative, laziness in exploring this wonderful world..

Feeling a pang of emptiness as well..
Spend most of the time browsing on the net..
While keep on telling myself no good immerse too much in the internet world,
My conscience tells me,
Why not?
At least internet gets you occupy with content kind of stuff
If not my time will be spent wondering or sleeping away..

That's the life when assignments &the terms are coming to an end..
While i have been wishing that i want to have more time of my own,
Boredom and emptiness is what i get..
Perhaps one really can't get too free
Have to engage on work

Well, at least internet still can let me get to see what's happening on facebook,
Sometimes you get some pleasant surprize by some comments or photos tagged by others.
Thrill of getting instant updates
Able to browse through various pages that you would want
Man,
Can't live without internet
My world will be stagnant without it

Oh God....
Get me out of this down feeling
Life can be more interesting and fulfilling than this
Grant me wisdom please,
To live my life.